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Teddi Mellencamp Arroyave: I'm A Woman with Emotions, and I Cried—It's Allowed
"I prefer genuine people and feelings over ice and diamonds."
Well, I lived that, and it was rougher to watch.
First, let me take accountability for my actions. Yes, I told Lisa Rinna something that Dorit had said three months prior at the time. In that moment, Rinna was talking about how great things had been with Dorit (since Vegas), and all I could think of was how many “warnings” I had been given and about her personality disorders (schizophrenia and “rage and regret”). So I told Rinna, because I have a genuine connection with her and would have felt fake and inauthentic if I hadn’t. And if the roles were reversed, I would want the same. That said, I do regret it—it was selfish on my part; partly because I did it so I didn’t feel badly carrying it around. But the fact remains, this is a pattern with Dorit and bothers me.
Speaking of accountability, Erika and Dorit make more cute comments about it/my job again this episode. Thing is, they couldn’t be my clients, because I only accept women who are able and willing to look at themselves truthfully. I assume the issue with this/me is that I’m holding up a mirror to the truth and it irritates them.
Anyhow, I purposely want to ride to drinks with Dorit to be honest with her about what I had repeated. Irony alert: Dorit accusing me of wanting to talk about a conversation about a conversation about a conversation. Um, isn’t that what I purposely shut down with her last week? As you see me say with Vanderpump (whom I get along with a lot more than just riding horses, but even so, sorry that we connect on something, Erika— it’s called making new friends), I would always rather speak things through without the extra noise of other voices swaying the conversation. Sadly, that didn’t end up being the case.
So we’re at drinks, and of course it comes up, and I wish Kyle would have gotten me a Hamilton ticket. Suddenly I’m at fault for all of the shitty things Dorit said and it’s back to her comments on Vanderpump and how none of the other ladies thought it was bad (except Camille, who I’m grateful admits as much). Erika thinks this is a perfect time to ask me how I am feeling in this friend group—it’s like a cat pouncing on a fly after it’s been smacked around and can’t get off the ground anymore. So I turn to Erika, recalling in NYC walking up those stairs when Erika said yes, she would be pissed if it were her. “Maybe I did, maybe I didn’t. It’s possible.” That is all I hear before saying she was “pretending full amnesia.”
As you saw, she was triggered and unleashed on me. Look, I wasn’t raised to speak to people that way and so I was kinda shocked by her unnecessary anger. Even if I don’t like someone, I will treat them with respect and can be cordial. I just feel like she’s just been waiting for the moment since we first met. She snapped at me in Vegas, she snapped at me at the beach house, she even corrected me when I called her a singer— something we’ve seen others call her to no effect. She’s done being nice to me? I must have missed when she started. It’s not in my nature to attack back on someone unhinged over the littlest thing, and so I disengage. But as you see me say to LVP— if she doesn’t remember, why is she so upset? I was keeping it together regardless that a grown woman aggressively spoke down to me while wagging her finger like she’s auditioning to be in Destiny Child’s “No, No, No Part 3.” But when I was saying goodbye, I did see a kindness in Dorit’s eyes and when she gave me a polite squeeze on my arm— that’s when the tears came and I wanted out of there. As I rush off, Erika tells Dorit to “leave that.” Not that I’d expect any less. She’s the same “friend” who was earlier telling Dorit she shouldn’t care about Lisa Vanderpump’s attention/affection. But yet she would be pissed if she were in LVP’s shoes regarding Dorit? Why not just tell Dorit that rather than mock their relationship? It seems like Erika is enjoying the rift between LVP and Dorit more than she lets on. Or she’s just not sure of how to function in a legitimate friendship that isn’t somebody telling her how amazing she is on a loop.
Speaking of friendship, I’d just like to say how I appreciate Lisa Vanderpump during this little saga, standing up for me and being a friend.
Oh, and crybaby? Sure, I’m a woman with emotions, and I cried. It’s allowed. It’s natural. What’s not natural is for you to stop another woman from trying to comfort somebody who’s obviously upset. But all bow to Regina Jayne. I won’t be sitting at that table. I prefer genuine people and feelings over ice and diamonds.
XX Teddi
First, let me take accountability for my actions. Yes, I told Lisa Rinna something that Dorit had said three months prior at the time. In that moment, Rinna was talking about how great things had been with Dorit (since Vegas), and all I could think of was how many “warnings” I had been given and about her personality disorders (schizophrenia and “rage and regret”). So I told Rinna, because I have a genuine connection with her and would have felt fake and inauthentic if I hadn’t. And if the roles were reversed, I would want the same. That said, I do regret it—it was selfish on my part; partly because I did it so I didn’t feel badly carrying it around. But the fact remains, this is a pattern with Dorit and bothers me.
Speaking of accountability, Erika and Dorit make more cute comments about it/my job again this episode. Thing is, they couldn’t be my clients, because I only accept women who are able and willing to look at themselves truthfully. I assume the issue with this/me is that I’m holding up a mirror to the truth and it irritates them.
Anyhow, I purposely want to ride to drinks with Dorit to be honest with her about what I had repeated. Irony alert: Dorit accusing me of wanting to talk about a conversation about a conversation about a conversation. Um, isn’t that what I purposely shut down with her last week? As you see me say with Vanderpump (whom I get along with a lot more than just riding horses, but even so, sorry that we connect on something, Erika— it’s called making new friends), I would always rather speak things through without the extra noise of other voices swaying the conversation. Sadly, that didn’t end up being the case.
So we’re at drinks, and of course it comes up, and I wish Kyle would have gotten me a Hamilton ticket. Suddenly I’m at fault for all of the shitty things Dorit said and it’s back to her comments on Vanderpump and how none of the other ladies thought it was bad (except Camille, who I’m grateful admits as much). Erika thinks this is a perfect time to ask me how I am feeling in this friend group—it’s like a cat pouncing on a fly after it’s been smacked around and can’t get off the ground anymore. So I turn to Erika, recalling in NYC walking up those stairs when Erika said yes, she would be pissed if it were her. “Maybe I did, maybe I didn’t. It’s possible.” That is all I hear before saying she was “pretending full amnesia.”
As you saw, she was triggered and unleashed on me. Look, I wasn’t raised to speak to people that way and so I was kinda shocked by her unnecessary anger. Even if I don’t like someone, I will treat them with respect and can be cordial. I just feel like she’s just been waiting for the moment since we first met. She snapped at me in Vegas, she snapped at me at the beach house, she even corrected me when I called her a singer— something we’ve seen others call her to no effect. She’s done being nice to me? I must have missed when she started. It’s not in my nature to attack back on someone unhinged over the littlest thing, and so I disengage. But as you see me say to LVP— if she doesn’t remember, why is she so upset? I was keeping it together regardless that a grown woman aggressively spoke down to me while wagging her finger like she’s auditioning to be in Destiny Child’s “No, No, No Part 3.” But when I was saying goodbye, I did see a kindness in Dorit’s eyes and when she gave me a polite squeeze on my arm— that’s when the tears came and I wanted out of there. As I rush off, Erika tells Dorit to “leave that.” Not that I’d expect any less. She’s the same “friend” who was earlier telling Dorit she shouldn’t care about Lisa Vanderpump’s attention/affection. But yet she would be pissed if she were in LVP’s shoes regarding Dorit? Why not just tell Dorit that rather than mock their relationship? It seems like Erika is enjoying the rift between LVP and Dorit more than she lets on. Or she’s just not sure of how to function in a legitimate friendship that isn’t somebody telling her how amazing she is on a loop.
Speaking of friendship, I’d just like to say how I appreciate Lisa Vanderpump during this little saga, standing up for me and being a friend.
Oh, and crybaby? Sure, I’m a woman with emotions, and I cried. It’s allowed. It’s natural. What’s not natural is for you to stop another woman from trying to comfort somebody who’s obviously upset. But all bow to Regina Jayne. I won’t be sitting at that table. I prefer genuine people and feelings over ice and diamonds.
XX Teddi
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